I have now gone to four sessions for pulmonary rehab, and I thought I would give you guys a status report. Remember when I said that the thing I was most concerned about was my ability to be patient with the process? Well, I got a little impatient this Thursday and it ended up in me having to get a hard lesson on the reality of my health. I am definitely more healthy than I was a year and even two years ago, and for that I am extremely blessed. The problem I seem to keep running into this this strange battle between my mind and most of my body and my lungs. In my head I think I feel great. My muscles are getting stronger and my body keeps trying to tell me I can work harder and that I need to be more active. Well, that’s just fine and dandy until my lungs start throwing in their opinion that I need to slow down. Normally I’m pretty good at paying attention to my lungs and doing my best to keep my asthma under control when I am working out. Well, this last session of rehab I decided to be a bit stubborn, and it wasn’t pretty. I didn’t have an asthma attack, but I got pretty dizzy and had to slow down. And when I say slow down, I’m talking about moving at about the speed of smell. Yeah. I wasn’t exactly thrilled, but the therapist was pretty insistent that I take it easy for the rest of the session. My breathing got a lot better and I didn’t feel so dizzy, but my legs were yelling at me to go faster and get my heart moving. It was so hard to take a step back and slow down that much, but I think I needed to be reminded that I an not invincible.
Not every day is going to be like that day. Some days I feel like my lungs can actually keep up with the rest of my body, and that’s awesome. I just need to keep working on listening to my body and knowing when to slow down on the days my lungs are a bit more tired than normal. I definitely need to work on being more in-tuned to my body and what I need. Most college students know what it’s like to be overrun with work and school, and right now is that time of the semester when everything is due and exams are just a few weeks away. Well, today I had one of those “I need to slow down and breath” kind of moments. I have a pretty big project due in one class tomorrow, another one due on Tuesday, have a novel read by Wednesday, and a 8-10 page paper due on Thursday. This week is going to be busy, but I need to make sure that I take care of myself in the midst of all this chaos and sit down and take a breather every now and again. A big part of our culture in America, I feel like, is to be constantly moving and working. There’s nothing wrong with working hard, but sometimes we need to just slow down, take a breath, and get away from all the noise. Even if that means turning off the computer and the cell phone (yes, the cell phone too) and just getting away from all the distractions for just a few minutes. Just trust me and try it, it’s one of the best things you can do for yourself when you need to take a break from the constant motion of life.
I know this post was kind of all over the place and a bit random, but my brain is a bit fried right now, so please bear with me. Over the next few weeks I will definitely try to keep posting every week or so, but with exams and term papers these posts may be a bit random like this one, so I apologize for my incoherence in advance.