I decided to try something new today. Instead of spending an unacceptable amount of time trying to write the perfect blog post, I’m just going to start writing. So bear with me for a moment, this might get a little bit bumpy.
When I first started this blog I wasn’t really sure what I wanted it to be. I knew that I wanted to write. I knew that I wanted to push myself beyond the boundaries of my bubble of comfort which limited my readers to my mom and professors grading essays. I also knew that I was in the middle of a strange but exhilarating place in my life that was made up of a lot of little things that made up one big thing: change.
The last two years have been a whirlwind of change. Almost two years ago now I told myself that I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, so I started losing weight, and have lost over 100 pounds since then. In the spring of 2013 I found out that I would be spending four months studying at the University of Oxford, and it took an entire summer and a transatlantic flight to convince me that it was actually happening. I spent four of the hardest but most rewarding and life-changing months in Oxford, England this last fall. While I was there I fell in love with reading and writing once more, but more importantly I was blessed with an amazing community of people that became my family.
The things that have happened since Oxford are still a little blurry, but I can tell you that change is still a pretty big element in my life right now. I’m pushing myself past limits I never thought possible. I’ve been accepted to the Master’s program at the University of Essex for English Language and Literature. I just spent the last month traveling with a friend I met in Oxford, and I know that if someone would have told me that would happen even one year ago I would have probably laughed. I’m not the girl that pushes boundaries. I’m not the girl that throws comfort and familiarity to the side of the freeway. Or at least I didn’t used to be that girl.
So what is the point of all this ranting nonsense? There are a lot of things that are important to me. Those things don’t always fit into neat categories, and that’s why this blog has been titled ‘Finding the Pieces.’ I’m still figuring out this weird phenomenon we’ve called life, so I want to pay attention to everything that matters to me right now, even if that means having a blog that is thrown together in a slightly haphazard fashion. Because at the end of the day I know that I want to write, and what better way than to just start writing?