Life is weird. The last time I published a post on this site was on June 3rd, just over three months ago. Just to recap what was going on in my life in that moment, here’s the mini revelation I had while I was writing said post:
I was so busy setting my eyes on England that I forgot to look right in front of me…I didn’t see how much I actually do love Michigan. And now I’m seeing these things and I’m making new friends and I’m finding that I’m happy and I’m not in England and that’s a good thing.
England is still in the plans. When and for how long is a different story…
For the first time since coming home from Oxford I finally felt completely content with staying in Michigan. Not just being in Michigan temporarily, I was even okay with the idea of staying in Michigan (or the U.S. in general) permanently. I hadn’t given up on England; I had decided to trust that any plans God had for me would always be enough regardless of what country I was in.
I remember hitting “publish” on the post after hours of prayer and writing. I remember going to bed that night, strangely excited about not having a solid answer to the question “where do you see yourself in five years?” And then I remember waking up the next morning, logging into my email account, and seeing an email from the University of Essex.
Fast forward three months. It is September 9th. In seventeen days I am getting on an airplane that is flying to England. In just a few weeks I will be starting my MA program in Sociolinguistics. I’m going to be a full-fledged adult who pays rent and buys toilet paper.
And, to be completely honest, I’m a little scared. I’m sad to be leaving the home I’ve finally found in Michigan. But I’m also really excited. And if I’ve learned anything this last year, it’s that I have absolutely no idea how my life might change. As scary as that used to sound, I’m starting to discover the joy in just watching everything unfold.